Hi A Tus

Upon the advice of my very intelligent and wise kidlet, I am taking a bit of a hiatus.  A week...a month...the whole summer, who knows?  I will be back, most likely.  Or not - but probably.  I mean, we can't ever know anything for certain, of course...  Usually when I give myself permission to NOT … Continue reading Hi A Tus

The “D” Train

Shit.  I was really hoping this was not going to happen.  Just today - friggin' TODAY - I was telling a friend that I thought maybe this time, it was really over.  Maybe I was just stuck in a bad place before, and that's why that last bout of depression lasted SO long and felt … Continue reading The “D” Train

Life and Death and Lies

Life can be beautifully poignant and excruciating sometimes.  A couple of days ago I felt like my heart was being wrung out like a dishrag because someone I love is going through something I can’t help with.  I can’t fix it or hug it away, I can’t lift their burden. I can only watch and … Continue reading Life and Death and Lies

Joe’s Last Day

OK - this is it.  #MentalHealthAwarenessMonth ends today, and I’m not writing about this anymore - at least not for a while, so here comes the hardest part.   I’ve been struggling with how to tell this last part of Joe’s story, and I’ve rewritten this post many times.  So I’m going to stop trying … Continue reading Joe’s Last Day

Monsters and Bullies and The Perfect Boy

May has been a rough month for me, and delving into my brother's story didn’t make it easier.  I thought it was important to tell Joe’s story because I wanted to contribute to #MentalHealthAwarenessMonth.  So for the past couple of weeks, I’ve been trying to write about his last day. Well, not “trying”. I’ve been … Continue reading Monsters and Bullies and The Perfect Boy

Self-ish Is A Four-ish Letter Word

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the word selfish, and the concept of selfishness in general.  I recently wrote about suicide, and in that process remembered how often the word selfish has been applied to people who have lost their battle with the pain and suffering of life.  I want to look at that … Continue reading Self-ish Is A Four-ish Letter Word

A Matter Of Perspective

As I’m sure you already know, the latest internet “thing” is an audio file that plays the names “Yanni” or “Laurel” at different frequencies, and some people hear one, other people the other, and some people can hear both.  The New York Times set up a page with a tool on it that has a … Continue reading A Matter Of Perspective

What’s Happening In My Mind?

As part of #MentalHealthAwareness month I’ve been talking a lot about growing up with a mentally ill brother. Today I thought I’d shake things up a bit and try to describe the source of one of my own mental health issues: Social Anxiety Disorder. Social anxiety is one of my favorite things to overthink.  It … Continue reading What’s Happening In My Mind?

My Cat Is Trying To Eat My Face

A few minutes ago I was laying on my bed groaning from pain, and my cat decided this was an ideal time to climb on top of me, scooch up my chest so that his chest was on my chin, and try to eat my face.  I can’t tell whether he is trying to help, … Continue reading My Cat Is Trying To Eat My Face

When Life Is Just TOO Hard – Part 2

This is a continuation of a previous post, and talks about suicide.  If this is a subject to which you are sensitive, please do not read any further.  If you have not read the previous post, you may wish to read "When Life Is Just TOO Hard - Part 1" before reading any further. Shortly … Continue reading When Life Is Just TOO Hard – Part 2